hey
ive started to realise ive done nothing at all to accomplish my new years revelation i set out from the start (release an EP). i want to release something (i REALLY DO) but for some reason my flexibility in pulling through project files and putting them out has just vanished ever since this year has started, i didnt even realise how fast time was passing until now
i want to move towards a new direction, like what im seeing with people i look up to. but replicating the stuff i hear in my head to the arrangement in that DAW is almost IMPOSSIBLE..
i have a few samples i say im gonna do something with and i never do anything with them, am i the laziest, inconsistent "artist" ever or what?
we'll just have to wait and see what i do in the future (IF I ACTUALLY DO ANYTHING AT ALL)
whatever, ive typed text on a screen and i dont even know who's reading it
sorry i've been so down and burnt out recently, i have NO motivation whatsoever
it feels like yesterday last time i typed on here, i really need to do something. i want to be given purpose; to show what i can do with already-existing pieces of music + creating my own original stuff, and show it to the world - so i can be SOMEONE. SOMETHING. SOMEWHERE.
workflow is slower than what it used to be, and even that was slow
like i said before;
the crowded and uncomfortable feeling that was already in my brain is worsening, im just hoping time will pass and that ill forget about what happened, im not really in the mood to do anything i like right now, and i dont want to go into detail, either
it's been a while since last time i've updated this, well i guess you could say "blog" - i don't really care what you want to call it. beside that, i've been finding different ways to improve at what i do slowly but surely, experimenting and practice is the least you can do to improve, that's what i've learned to conclude these past few months. beating myself up won't fix anything, in fact it'll just make my peers laugh harder.
still at a loss for words, i'm sick of waiting for my world to unfold when i'm not contributing to doing that, but you'll still be patient, right?
is anyone there
